A part of ❤

my relatives including my grandma came to my house last Thursday.

And they went back on Tuesday. 

In 5 days there's a lot for me to learn and see. 

Also, i took down pictures that are really precious and memorable, for me.

Oh yeah, went to GM shopping with 3rd aunt grandma and others, 

i passed by a shop which has no name, 

I was attracted to a dress ( the one I'm wearing )

There's a lot of ways to tie the ribbon behind ( I tie it on my waist, it could be tied on neck, shoulder etc. )

And i superb love the wave-like pattern at the bottom of the dress.

Oh, i drank wine!

The wine above its mine :)

I wanted to get along well with the adults and i drank wine, 

The taste was horrible, for people who don't know how to drink wine like me.

But i'll get used to it someday!

I will fell in love with wine.

We had nuts, biscuit, chips, soft drink and wine.

Every night mum will bring grandma to the living room and massage her legs,

then mum will prepare a pail of hot water with vinegar and salt in it.

After massaging, mum will gently put grandma's leg inside.

 3rd aunt helped too,

one daughter one leg. 

=]

Oh, sunday after church, the brothers and cousin went to buy chocolate banana cake for grandma, we're having a secret birthday party for grandma.

 The brother hold the cake and take it out, 

grandma was happy.

She clapped her hands.

 Look!

 My happy grandma.

 My family members.

 What a big family

Grandma cutting the cake.

Noticed something?

The cake grandma eat was exactly the same as what mum and dad eat.

The cake was indeed delicious, 

it was special too,

you'll find it interesting to find bananas in the middle of the cake. 

p/s: I asked grandma about japanese army came to our country and how old was she, she said she was 6-7 years old, and did not remember much, she said when the japanese army came they will run around and hide at other places, she also said that there were many killed when japanese army were there. Everyone's afraid.

That's all.

The making of egg tart.

Recently i'm bored at home, so i asked my mum to bring me out. Like, take me out to learn how to bake cookies, cakes, etc. I love baking. Cause after you bake and your family and friends get to eat what you do, that feeling is super great.

So i told my mum i wanted to go to her colleague's house and learn how to bake egg tart cause she's super great in doing those, i know cuz i tried them. It's really nice and not bad. 

Frankly speaking, it is actually quite easy to make an egg tart. It needs patience and handwork. You need to mix the flour and egg and butter together. It's quite disgusting when you're doing it but i find it fun and love doing it (although sometimes it sort of wanna stuck in my nails but luckily i cut my nails.)

They have a metal stuff shaped like the tart, so we put the mixture of flour and butter and egg to make the skin of the egg tart, the outside part. (This step took us a lot of time.)

 Here you go!

And it's time to put it into the oven to bake!

Baking the outside layer of the egg tart. It seriously smells nice when it's done! You'll feel like eating it right away although there's no fillings!

Yeah, the temperature and timing should be accurate.

 After the outside layer is baked.

 Wait for it to get cooler now add the mixture of eggs, sugar, hot water and ideal milk to finish the fillings.

Once again, bake it.

The temperature and timing should be accurate too, if not it'll not cook or it'll be too fried.

 After the egg tarts' done!

 Gosh, look inside the egg tart!

Take out from the metal thing and put it inside this!

i felt that i did well for the first time.

Baking wasn't easy but if you like it it'll be as easy as pie.

17112010 Happy Birthday mum and dad!

It's a wednesday.
It's mum's birthday.
When i woke up, i almost forgot about it!
And then we hugged mum and wished her happy birthday. She was very happy.

When dad and mum went to fetch brother to tuition, me and 2nd brother sneaked out of the house and headed to Tesco King's to buy mum's birthday cake. Brother said that the cakes there are nice.

So we wandered around the shop, thinking which cake is better. 

Mum phoned me and ask where am i, i said I'm shopping with brother, he wanted to buy something and we'll be right back.

We went to left and right finding for the suitable cake. 

At last we chose chocolate banana.

The staff helped us to write the words on the cake.

Taaaa daaaaa! 

That's our Chocolate banana cake :)

The brother wrote :

Happy birthday Mom & Dad

From your 3 ❤ lee kids [Our surname is lee]

So why we celebrate dad and mum's birthday together?

Actually dad's birthday is on the 2nd day of my school finals so we don't have the time to celebrate for him.

We wished him.

But there's no cake.

So 2nd brother said let's celebrate dad's birthday together with mum's and everyone agreed.

Look how happy mum and dad is :)

Make a wish and blow your candles! 

My mum is 48 and dad's 51, so we removed the 7 small candles and added 1 more big candle. That makes it 51. So we sang again, this time it's for dad.

Look how happy they are!

May the good Lord bless you

May the good Lord bless you

May the good Lord bless papa

May the good Lord bless you!

Cut cakes! ❤

Happy birthday mum & dad,

Hope you are happy!

*When i called dad and mum to go down, they're like "What wor?" Then they went down they saw the cake then they started smiling and "awwww...That's why you are not home today! you went to buy cake for us yeah.." And we're smiling and laughing too. Hugs Hugs*

阿公，我会永远的怀念您。

今天是阿公离开人世的第7天。

我好想念他……

阿公唯一留给我的，就是他病入膏肓的照片，

每当我看着那些照片，就犹如刀割在我心。

我好后悔，我不断地问我自己：
“为什么当初我不拍更多阿公的照片？”
哎，后悔已经来不及了……
阿公都走了，他不会再回来了。
但我仍然相信阿公的灵魂还活在我们当中，
只是我们看不见。
阿公一定是在默默地保护着我们，
为我们祈祷。

阿公的离开好像是天主安排好了的，阿公在诸圣瞻礼那一天[1/11/2010]去世，然后[2/11/2010]则是追思生亡日，所以阿公算是幸运的了！

在这个星期里，大家每天都在为阿公祈祷，念玫瑰经，我们不厌，也不烦。我们都爱阿公，我们希望他能早日登上天堂，跟耶稣聚在一起。

每晚都有很多人到来为阿公祈祷，我们心存感激。我也学会了一点点的潮州话，也是第一次见识到用潮州话来念经。开始我觉得有点怪怪的，因为潮州念经方式是用来唱的，而华语则是用来念的，毕竟我不会说方言，但是念多了就习惯了，反而越听越好听。

阿公的孙子孙女们都把想要告诉阿公的话写在一张心形的颜色纸上。大家都很用心写，我也不例外。我把我心里想说的话都说出来，感觉好舒服。我从小一直都很想告诉阿公

谢谢你教我的karate。我这一生怎么也不会忘！

阿公的逝世，使我们这些分散各地的亲戚朋友的关系拉近，大家聚在一起，有说不完的话，分享不完的经历，我们一起笑，一起哭，一起玩。
有一次准备的食物不够，我们这些孙子们就到附近的小食中心吃晚餐，
别人看见我们都投来异样的眼光。
有一个卖水的老板问我们是阿公的谁，我们都说我们是阿公的孙子。
他立刻吓了一跳，
他也知道，我们这个大家庭总共有22个孙子。

住在美国的六姨因为在美国买不到机票而慌了，她为了要见阿公最后一面，买了去韩国的机票，然后在那里等了好久好久~她多么希望可以买到来马来西亚的机票。最后还是给她等到了！她就在星期五凌晨3.3am抵达，总算松了一口气。买机票的费用可不小，但是这些阿姨都不管，最重要的还是自己的父亲，我们的阿公。

在出殡的前一晚，孙子们、小舅、七姨、七姨仗、小姨、小姨丈、三姨都留下来，陪阿公度过最后一夜。我很难入睡，从小到大，我没有跟阿公一起睡过，现在我可以跟阿公一起睡，当然要陪他久一些，迟点儿再睡。


大舅的孩子，也就我的表哥更厉害，一整晚都在守夜，根本就没有真正的闭上眼睛。也就是因为这样，他们才等到了六姨的到来。

出殡的时候，什么“倒立就可以阻止眼泪滑落”都不管用了，大家的眼泪都落了下来，我强忍，眼泪一直在眼眶里打转，我忍，眼泪一滴一滴的，我马上擦掉，我不要哭。

他们把阿公和棺木推出Lazarus room，放在教堂里，我们进行弥撒。

我们孙子们每晚都在讨论，分工合作，为了就是要把这个弥撒进行得顺顺利利。我负责读经，三哥负责弹一首曲子，诗婷姐姐负责主持弥撒，其他的孙子呢……他们就负责歌团，唱歌的工作。

我的心情原本已经是安定下来了，眼泪也干了，但是，弥撒完了之后，他们就播放了一个slide show，是关于阿公的，忧伤的音乐，感人的词，美丽的照片，此时此刻把现场所有跟阿公有血缘或没血缘关系的人弄哭了！我坐在读经的位子上，特前，所以我就强忍不哭，但是眼泪一行一行的划过我的脸颊。我擦去眼泪，我又忍……

最后，我们绕着棺木和阿公，我们都看了阿公最后一眼。阿姨们，舅舅们，都围在棺木前面，大家握着棺木，慢慢的把棺木盖上，那一刻，每个人都哭得好凄凉。我忍不住了，我只好利用摄影，让自己不哭。因为只有摄影，我才能不哭。不也不知道为什么会这样，但是，只要我一对着镜头安快门，我就把100%的专注力放在照片上，也就不会去想那些伤心事了。

阿公自己选择了火葬。原本他想要坟葬，但是我听他们说，阿公害怕有一天有人要用到那块地，就会把他的棺材挖出来，他不要。所以他选择火葬，而且火葬可以把骨灰收在家里。随时都可以看见。

去火化场的路程当中，我们唱了“万福玛利亚”的歌。大家都唱得好辛苦。

阿公火化了之后，我们把阿公的骨灰放在家里，大家继续念玫瑰经，没有间断过。

阿公，你要开心，我们也会开心，
你要知道，
我们都爱您。