我的蟑螂英雄

我拿着垃圾袋，走到了楼下，楼下一片漆黑，伸手不见五指，又是爸爸把等关了，屋子暗暗地似鬼屋。我随手把灯打开，看见一只黑黑色的东西在客厅椅子打转，我吓着了！我连忙喊爸爸。从小到大，我就是那么的怕蟑螂，爸爸妈妈总是说我没出息！蟑螂都怕！

“爸爸！蟑螂，蟑螂啦！有蟑螂！”

而爸爸总是……

“哪里？你杀掉它啦。”

“不要！不要！我不敢！”

然后英雄就会咚咚咚从楼上不耐烦的走下来，我很无辜的看着他，告诉他蟑螂躲在哪里。爸爸走了过去，找适合犯罪杀物的武器。

我拿着垃圾，开了门走了出去，就在这时，我听见“啪！”的一声。蟑螂死了。不需要问，不需要猜，更不需要看，我知道，蟑螂死了。

当我丢完垃圾回来，我看见爸爸正在“清理”尸体，好像要把犯罪证据拿掉。哈哈！爸爸啊，爸爸~ 你真的是我的蟑螂英雄! ❤

random picture of my random life.

Hey people. Going to talk about my random life now.

Had an injection, it was a freaking scary experience, and now i know, that injection is not pain at all. Just that my left hand is swollen and pain, (My friends even played the hand beating game.) And i don't know why my baby injection mark is red too ... Miyan told me they're connected together. WTF. 

My friends drew this on my book, i noticed it when i open my book to study.

This is not murder nor suicide.

It's... I broke a jam that cost a lot.

A day at park to photoshoot, this is my house's alley. 

The park.

A grandpa & grandson.

My brother(right) and cousin brother.

The brother playing basketball.

Photoshooting session with my cousin sisters.

A cute girl at the park.

Grandma on the house.

Good food on the house too.

Cousin brother's graduation.

A shampoo you can't find in Msia, it's a korea's shampoo @ Korea shop in Malaysia. Imported. 

And ends with a epic half face... nearly half....of mine.. 

kthxbai

The feelings for elderly.

Sunday is the day where you go to church and pray. It's the day where you study about God and about Love. After church, a sense of relief will flow throughout your whole body. It's the power of Sunday. The power of God.

 But, there's a lot of funeral cars passing by the streets and houses on Sunday too.  

After church, me sitting beside driver seat and second brother sitting on the driver seat, 2 more brothers sitting behind. We're going out to grab some lunch. 

When our car finally get to GO after all the cars passed by, we saw an old man on a bike. He's like anybody else, normal as ever. 

I did not notice him until i sense something like rice and brown powder stuff dropped on the floor when he's riding in front of our car, the bags and plastic of rice and beans and powder from his bike are all dropping onto the floor. At that moment, we couldn't do anything, our car is behind his bike, and we saw him stopped at the side, my heart jumped a trillion times and i screamed when our car stepped on his beans and rice 

"Brother! He's an old man! We should help him!"

And my eldest brother shouted too "DON'T STEP ON IT!!!" 

Our car just passed by his bike, and i saw that INNOCENT FACE that could make my mind go wrong for the whole day.  I don't know why, but i don't like to see that face, because my heart tells me.... 

S-Y-M-P-A-T-H-Y. 

 After saying..."WE SHOULD HELP HIM!".... all i can hear is the reply from my elder brother...

"We're in the middle of the road! There's nothing we can do!" 

I lean back at the chair, helplessly, pictures are flashing in my mind, pictures of...

me helping him, asking him what can we help him with...

&

pictures of 

our car blocked in the middle of the narrow road and help the old man to pick up his beans and rice with all the honking and scoldings..... 

Yes, there's nothing we can do, i tell myself. 

If we stopped down and help him, maybe a traffic jam will happen, or maybe tragic accident, 

but.... that old man won't feel so helpless if we just stop down and help him... 

I learned about LOVING OTHERS in Sunday school today... but what happened was... we just drove away, looking at the mirror, i felt that I'm so far away from God...

i hope he's fine.

kthxbai,

Lucky? Not so.

I used to tell myself that i'm the luckiest girl in the world. But sometimes, facts are facts. When you're lucky, it's like POOF, you're lucky. When you're UNLUCKY, it's like.... the world is playing tricks with you.

Today was my UNLUCKY day. Well, humans are lazy, they just feels lazy to walk or so. I was cleaning up the kitchen table, so i hold a box of biscuits, 1 loaf of bread, and 2 jams. And, walked walked walked... i felt insecure, and that's when i noticed that i lost balance of the glass jam, the next second, the jam was on the floor, in pieces. It was a yummy jam, and yummy jam COSTS!!

All i could think of that moment is...
"Shit, i did it again... And my dad will kill me."

That's very normal, everyone does that.


kthxbai

Sometimes when you're wrong.

Sometimes when you did something wrong, you'll not notice it until someone starts to show you faces telling that you are the one that breaks their heart.... you know.
When you know it, you tried to apologize, and sometimes, it doesn't work.
Especially when the person starts to say something that it feels like something is stabbing straight through your heart. You stunned there, and other people just ask you to GO AWAY or it's ok, they can handle it...
When you feel helpless, you can only say ..."ok..." and went back, emo, sad, sorrow.
No matter how many times, how many sorry(s) you've told, it's just not enough.
But when the person came and apologize to you for being too bad, you'll smile. Like an angel :)

kthxbai.

Chinese lesson is fun.

My friend and i are having mandarin class today, and the teacher gave us homework. So my friend, i call her H, she lies on the table and looks like she's sleeping, the teacher "sneak attack" her and grab her neck from behind, H jumped up and shouted "YERHHHH"

Teacher: WOIHHHH! Wake up!! *Grabs H neck*
H : *Jumps up immediately* YERRHHHHH~! Scared me to death.
Teacher: Not yet die !
H : Hahahahah!! No laa~~
Teacher: You very pampered (Manja) hor you??
H : Heeheee... No la~~

After teacher's gone..

H : Walaoo! I want to sleep but teacher come and disturb me~! Scared me to death!
Everyone : NOT YET DIE LA!

kthxbai.

The STUDY and EXAM and RESULT thing.

Maybe i wasn't hardworking enough, maybe i did not put in enough afford. This is what they say, slacking every time. I can't believe that it happened to me.

It's a government test to test the student's level and they say if this exam is hard, the assessment paper will be easy. Maybe the person who started this assessment-paper-will-be-easy thing just wanted to comfort you. So naive.

 I wasn't in the mood to study, good students aren't PERFECT, they're not GOD. There's always good and bad for everything. Even a priest sin, even a good student became a bad student, even a good husband cheats, even a good friend of yours back stab you. Anything could happen, it's the same for the results of a good student.

I really hate the world GOOD STUDENT, but it's really hard to try and ignore it too. Every time people asks you,

"Hey nich, have u studied yet? "
And if you reply the word NO, they'll be like..
"No waaaaay, you're a GOOD STUDENT!"

Then why ASK?!!! Since you think you've know the answer, WHY ASK?

Or another situation is...
"Hey, nich, have u studied yet?"
"NO."
"Aiyahhh, GOOD STUDENT didn't study ? True or not. Don't lie okay. "

Who the heck wanna lie?

.....

The worst moment in school is knowing that there's exam; the worse moment of after knowing that there's exam is study; the worse moment after study is exam day, the worse moment after exam day is RECEIVING YOUR RESULTS. Especially when parents go to your school, and receive your result slip themselves during Parent's day. And that's when all your GOODs and BADs will reach your parent's ear, and they can see your TRUE SELF. BUAHAHAHA.

I loved to observe all the faces after everyone received their papers. There'll be ....

"Shit, my mum will definitely kill me this time.."
or...
"Wow, i can't believe i get so good result for this one, i thought I'll fail this."

That's something common you'll find in good classes.

1) Shit, Die, MUM KILL, Damn, Fail, CRY.
2) Yay, A's, Grades, High marks, Happy, Celebrate, WOOHOO, Mum happy.


kthxbai.

The perfect mum.

The world most beautiful mother is here.
You are watching her. :)

Mum, happy bday! I love you :D

The quiet boy.

Have you noticed something? Yes, the guy that sits at the corner of the classroom, couldn't blend together with the others. It's not a new environment for him, it's not a new world for him, it's the same old classroom, his classroom.

But why he always keeps his mouth shut? Why couldn't he blend with the others? He can talk, yes, he's not dumb, not deaf, not blind, not lame. He's like any other normal school kids. Everyone approach him, makes him laugh, cares about him, all he do is SMILE. Because he seldom talk, everyone long to hear his voice. We don't know what to do to make him speak, to make him open his mouth and maybe say something, make the whole class laugh.

He obeys everything. Everything. Except for those, Impossible. Words spoken out from his mouth are UBER precious, like gold. When he speaks, it's like a big news for everyone.

The quiet boy, he's the genius in our class. People don't bully him, they respect and plays with him. He's always showing us his smile, and his words, cost more than you can ever imagined.

He speaks softly, he's not rough, once he finished saying a sentence, he closes his mouth and stop speaking. We wanted to hear more, but that's all he wants to say. That boy, that quiet boy, sits at the corner of the classroom because he's a tall guy. A tall and shy guy, maybe he's not shy, just don't want to speak, couldn't blend in with us.

He haunched his back when he walks, that's him, the quiet boy.

Playing around with my patience and my mind.
My teeth are betraying me,
they hurt so much that it kills.
Cavity cavity, i hate you.

Why people likes dslr

Why people like dslr?

For me.....I SAID, FOR ME, people like dslr because...

1) You look cool with it.

2) It has lots of settings that u can play with

3) You will take better quality pictures

4) It's expensive.

5) Changeable lens

1#

Look cool with it

So u bought a DSLR and you started going to the park or any public places to take picture, people would look at you, and just walks away, or maybe thinking you're doing some kind of job. BUT, try and think, if you're holding a small digital camera and crawling on the floor taking a picture of a little ant (macro shot), people would think like... Is this guy mad? Once again, take note, THIS IS ALL MY POINT OF VIEW.

2#
Lots of settings.
DSLR camera is not like any other digital camera, it has lots of settings, auto, manual, aperture, shutter, ISO...etc. Could play with it and have lots of experience and fun.

3#
Better quality pictures.

Visited a DSLR user's blog, i love to see his photos, they're all so amazing and nice! It's all taken using DSLR D90. Very cool eh? For normal digital camera, it's hard to get totally blur and focus at the exact point you want.

Just look at that SCENERY SHOT!! So beautiful.

4#
Expensive.

People love DSLR because it's EXPENSIVE. Hell yeah, cheapest price for a dslr camera is RM1,000+ Maybe that's just for the camera body only. Who says its cheap to own something that you can use FOREVER and good quality?

5#

Changeable lens.

You can change to lens and get different shots. Like, for wider angles, or better macro, for digital camera, the lens is FIXED. If you take out, the camera dies. There's no such thing for digital cameras. 

kthxbai.